We had our last conversation last night and it made me realize that it’s not worth it. However, I was unable to say a lot of things that I wanted to say to him. Maybe it’s just me, but I’m the kind of person that needs closure to move on. I was thinking about writing out a letter and sitting on it for a week. If I still feel the things I wrote are important to share with him then I will send it. Right now I just need to feel what I have to feel. I’m not feeling hopeless, just sad, and afraid of what’s to come.