I sabotaged myself today I tuned in. Then for 3 hours like a psychopath I was reading article after article try to find answers to the questions raised by the precious one. I was so upset I sobbed down the phone at my mum. She felt powerless as she could not be there for me. What struck me the most is Ive read it will be until June. I had just adjusted to two more weeks but until June I can’t be separated from everyone I love. Stupid thoughts crawled back in like what if Jay doesn’t want me anymore by then. What if I never get the chance to kiss him. I recognise these are stupid stupid thoughts but this anxiety always grips me when I read the news. He has called me but I don’t want to speak to him in this state. Then I try to remind myself in world war 2 when young children would be sent away to the countryside for months without videocall and tech we have to reach each other . When will this be all over? Anyone got any good tips for stopping the anxiety spiralling when it starts ?