Dear Anita,

Yes. It has been super rough, but I definitely need to work on my self-esteem, and for me, at least at this time, I don’t want to go looking for attention from other guys to “help” with that, as I feel it will only be a temporary thing. I am using this lockdown for self-improvement, that way when all this calms down and I can start up my routines again, I don’t feel scared to be me, and scared to give things a chance either (I’ve been struggling a bit with this). I’ve felt paranoid that cheating, lying, and disrespect will follow me into a new relationship (when the time comes of course, I’m not looking to do that, I want to heal.)

And you’re right, I will try to go about the day like it’s just another day. I am going to prepare and mute all his family’s social media too, because I know if I see something I will cave. I was thinking of sharing the letter that I wrote him on here and you can analyze it as much as you want. I will post it in a bit.

Thanks,

Alejandra