Hi Anita. I met him today after about two months and to me it just felt so weird. Maybe because of what had happened this week? I just don’t know. It was quiet and I felt very odd by it and I mentioned it to him, and he said he didn’t feel that way at all – instead he felt happy because he saw me.

We hung out for an hour, talked and caught up. He wanted to clear things up about us since he had a feeling I was upset but I had told him that we shouldn’t talk about us and that we can do it another time. He agreed and reassured me that he loves me very much and wants to be with me and constantly thinks about me and us being back together. Personally, I had such a hard time believing and trusting it due to the past couple of days. I just can’t seem to move on from the fact that he was so unsure about us a few days ago…

We still have loads to talk about and I’m waiting until examination levels are over so we can clear things up. I’m not even sure how I feel about the idea of us being together right now if I’m being honest because of what already happened. But I may be saying this because I haven’t properly heard his explanation as to why he felt unsure in the first place, what made him “stuck in the middle”, what made him change his mind and deciding to be with me, and why is he 100% certain of it. After I find those things out, I can feel some type of peace in my heart and move forward on whether or not this will work out.

As for no contact, I decided to stick to the same method as we did before. No texting, no phone calls but simply check-ins through social media applications.