Dear Ravi,

Thank you for your kind words.

When I think about myself without P, it makes me feel sad. I do not think that it is a matter of feeling incomplete without him, however. It is a sadness from loosing someone that I have felt connected to. It is more about him being there for me when I needed someone. Imperfectly, of course, but he was there. And now I am grieving his presence, I guess.

You know this idea of a relationship with myself is kind of strange to me. I do not understand what it means. We all need others, be they romantic partners, good friends or family member. I do not have many people that I can talk to and connect with in my life right now. I had P for a while. So it is difficult for me to have detached expectations. I do not know how to.