You are right. Since it is difficult for me right now to avoid contact with him, I also cut down on social media and deleted the applications off my phone so I don’t feel tempted to message him or see what he’s doing. I do have SnapChat and we have a streak but I haven’t snapped him since last night so that streak will definitely die tonight.

I will try the meditation tomorrow morning, or actually — maybe tonight before I sleep and see how it goes. Thank you very much anita, I hope things become easier and I will do my best to let go of the desperation, anxiety and the animosity I have. There is a lot I want to improve for myself and with your help, I will be able to focus more on that this summer.

Thank you once again, you have been an incredible source of support for me during this time.