Hi Anita. Thx for the reply.

I never said I ignored the issue. In fact, I did say to her I will confront my parents about her one day. I have assured her of my determination. I told her I just need more time. The thing is, all relationship takes time, that much we all know. I admit our attraction might seem superficial because we developed connection in such a short time. Even she agreed we need to spend more time together (like living together for 6 months before marriage). But looking at how things now, it seems whatever she said doesn’t matter anymore.

Anyway, let’s continue the story. On 28th May, I decided to send her my heartfelt letter (text, I dunno her address) about everything (being upfront to my parents about her, criticizing her negativity yet understanding her decision, and me being heartbroken, not expecting her back but hoping to meet each other again). She video-called me the next afternoon, saying she’s just checking me out because she was confused seeing my sudden letter and will call back later. She video-called me again at night, ranting about my letter (sounding angry and indifferent). We got into a debate but the whole conversation just seems off, it’s like she don’t want to have anything to do with me at all. She claimed she is rushing to sleep and need to wake up very early to go on 3 day holiday the next day and will call me back during that time. I waited. Turns out she never did. I texted her again, telling her I wanted to continue our discussion. She just said she can’t promise and will call when she’s not busy. A few days later, nothing is ever heard from her again.

I have decided to let her go and contemplating to delete her number. All this drama is taking its toll on my mental health. I find it hard to believe that she can suddenly be busy and not get back to me, knowing the fact we used to video call every night without fail. All I wanted was just to continue our leftover discussion and hopefully reach out to her. But if my love can’t get through to her then nothing ever will. I even began to think that perhaps she’s just playing with my feelings (there were some minor red flags during our relationships). If that’s true, then it’s too bad that despite all the negative stigma of single mothers (not just Indonesia but apparently it’s like all over the world) she proved them right. Or perhaps she’s sacrificing herself to prevent me falling out with my parents. She never asked for any money though, her job paid well so I don’t think she’s a con.

Thank you Anita for the reply. I’ll post more when I have more things to say.