Thanks for the tips, i’ll try remembering them in the moment. I guess I should change the words I w ill tell her at the hike from

“I’ll let you think about if you still want to remain friends and give you until August 1st, if I don’t hear back from you by then you wont hear from me again”

to more…

“I am gonna take some time away for a while, but if you still wanna talk and see me message me before Aug 1”. I am not going to let her respond to what I will tell her, I am not looking for an answer just a release after all these years, an answer wont mean anything to me because the past is the past and long gone and I am just living in the long gone. After that I think it’s best I let her know to not reach out to me until I reach out when I am ready.