Dear Anita, Thank you for your answer. Your words, which I read on this forum concerning other subjects, are always full of empathy and light.

I am still very hurt by the fact that he did not respond to my email, especially because we wrote by chat afterwards and that he pretended that it did not exist! I had considered the scenario that he could have started to communicate with someone else indeed … he is a known person so he often receives messages from girls. But I find your interpretation very suitable: he seeks novelty, intensity … and he told me that he had grown tired of our exchanges, that the fact that we were in lockdown made our exchanges less “surprising” “and that he no longer had the taste as much as before talking to me … It is very hard to receive because, as I told him, I have not changed myself, I am the same girl of the start. I try to support him … but when we met in person two weeks ago, he told me that his self-esteem was zero, that he felt fuzzy in all aspects of his life and s apologize for making me experience this. He did not feel ready to continue a relationship when I have expectations that he cannot currently meet … I was still hurt when he said to me: I could meet someone in a month, be attracted to something new and start a relationship. It’s very difficult to hear … I also explained to him how I felt in the email but since I don’t have a follow-up, I don’t know what he might have thought of it … I tend to try to find what I did not have or what I did which did not suit … I know that he was already reluctant just before the lockdown (but I was the one asking him to make a decision because he was not able to do it) but why not give the chance to continue to see if it evolves? I felt a little needy about being dissatisfied that he did not respond to my email … but you validate my emotion of frustration and disappointment … As if I did not deserve an answer …