Dear anita,

Hope you wouldn’t mind if I don’t take your advice to reach out as a precaution, because he probably doesn’t care, and I don’t want to humiliate myself. Maybe I should adjust/change this mindset, but I’m not “ready”.

Even being little, I was able to observe the unpleasant atmosphere between my parents, the process until the divorce was frightening to a degree. I used to blame that for forming my way of thinking about relationship, not until this year did I kind of stop the idea and decide that I’m responsible for my behaviour, too.

Throughout the year I’ve tried to not to be my mother although I’m fully aware that she’s innocent. Just can’t stand her aggressive attitude during a fight, and I’ve adopted my father’s silent but passive aggressive way.

And with this person, I’ve become my mother by opening up and trying to communicate (calmly), while he’s like my father.

Still don’t know when I felt being abandoned or worried about it.