Dear anita

I havent been bragging anymore, but recently i’ve showed off again by posting a birthday pic for one of my friend on social media (it’s a pic of us eating in a fancy restaurant). At first i feel happy to show people of this pic because i look good in there… but then after posting it i regret again, yet again because i dont want people to think im showing off again, as i’m trying to stop people from thinking about me in that way. But i did it again and now i really really regret it.

I started to show off because one of my closest friend (he’s kind to me, but he’s spoiled rich since he was a kid). He used to told me that to avoid feeling inferior you must show your status of wealth. Because i’m a person who likes to show people about me on social media(seeking attention) and because he teach me to show wealth, i end up posting luxury food for the past 3 years on daily basis. I know his intention is good for me to stop feeling inferior, but now i really really regret it. I cant change people’s perspective on me now after all this showing off. I’m also afraid normal girls might ran away seeing me like this.

I feel like i’ve been showing myself as a money spender on social media. Deep in my heart i really hate that closest friend because he teach me this…