I suppose I have been trying to treat this dialogue too much as a therapist relationship, which is both unfair to you and unproductive for me. If I seem to be laying out too much information or scattered in my thinking, this is not the case. Rather I am trying to paint a fuller picture of where I am coming from re: relationships and men.

I think I will step back from posting here for a while. I’m not sure what I am looking for in posting but in general I think obsessing over long-dead facts in my life, and dredging them up for strangers on the internet to assess, is not the right direction.