Dear anita,

I want to thank you for the time you spent writing that message and trying to get the big picture from everything I wrote.

I think you have a point about anger. It feels puzzling because I had never thought about that before. But I can tell that yesterday, after receiving her friendzone message, I was sad AND angry. I was crying and couldn’t stay in one place. I even punched some doors and cushions out of anger.

About the origins of my anger : I think it may come from telling myself that I keep failing in having a love life, that I cannot get what others have (I’m not talking about material things), that I can’t seem to get out of depression, that nothing really changes. I know that I am very hard on myself and that I should be patient but I just can’t.

Daniel