Dear Anita,

Yes you are correct..” Feeling lonely, unattended to, unloved,  feeling that he likes someone else better than he likes you/ feeling jealous, suspicious… ” is what i feel for my entire life… even if with my dad…

I just remember… when i was in elementary school, and my father give compliment to my friend. And i become really jealous.. i feel my father like her more than me… i just remember this because you mention my childhood…

My father also never celebrate my birthday except my 1 years old… every birthday that i left is really ordinary… then i become feel some of dissapointed… although i know much that my father love me.. he loves me.. and give everything to me.. when he alive, i  thought that he didn’t like me because my face just the same with my mom that he hate the most (he ever told me that thing when he was angry). because of that, sometimes i got pain from my dad’s word when he angry and become compare me with my mom. Which is i never know since i was 3 years old..

And sadly… my husband also not like to celebrate special moment 😭

She didn’t mention or said anything else.. just said “poor tania” so thats why so many questions in my head… should i ask my husband..? Or i just ignore it.. maybe it’s just my sensitivity….?