I really hope all of these are just bad thoughts… I’m thinking of it now and I couldn’t bare to see him with someone else. I want this guy forever and just the thought of him with someone else kills me inside. I’m scared for my life that it isn’t just bad thoughts and that I really just don’t love him.. I don’t want to lose him in any way. I’m honestly about to cry right now.. I hope we can get these thoughts away.. If they are just thoughts.. Because I just want to be happy with this guy and have full love towards him.. He’s my every 11:11 wish, my every thought, etc. I see my entire future with him clearly and no one else.