Dear Rose:

Thank you for replying too.

Yes I feel a lot of shame and anxiety in almost all of my relationships. I do not know if I am the “third wheel” in this relationship with “A” because she has said many times that she is waiting for me to realize that I want to spend a life with her. And we talked about me watching her with the other guy. I think that I asked? We both pursued another person for her because we wanted to not have a normal relationship.

But I will write like you said.

Joe