“will he respond to me positively now that I expressed myself in a different way? And you are planning to unblock him on Thursday and check to see if he responded to your message  positively. Am I correct?” => I won’t lie, there is a part of me which would wish this. But to start off, once we are blocked on facebook, it’s impossible to respond to the person who blocked us so just this fact erase the point of me getting an answer from him as long as he’s blocked.

Second, actually today I feel pretty well regarding him and the past situation. I feel kind of relieved now that I spitted out all my thoughts. I think I was pretty clear in my message concerning the aim of my speech, I clearly wrote “This is not a romantic letter, neither a desperate attempt to influence you in any way. Simply how feelings have evolved since the beginning until now. There are no expectations hidden behind.”, “I needed to spit out these thoughts in order to get the final peace of minds regardless for how long we haven’t talked and I needed you to know them. Also because I don’t want to have regrets, because I think it’s important to say to people what we feel for them.”, “(…)So please, don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that if I write this it’s to convince you that I want to be in relationship with you.”. And I meant at 100% what I wrote.

I think the conclusion of this message was “Hey, I do have feelings for you but just like you I’m not totally ready for a serious relationship and we’re both lost”. To be fair I don’t know what I expect from him after this message. I just hope I didn’t sound like if I was doing a sort of self-martyrism by saying this “Without any doubts you moved on a long time ago and I must accept it. After sending you this message, I will delete you. Not only because there are obvious facts I must accept by myself but mostly because I don’t want to see you rejecting me another time (and obviously because I freak out, I’m not used to talk about my emotions and feelings that openly, I’m very sorry, honestly).”. I hope he won’t get me wrong, I wasn’t praying him to tell me the contrary.