Dear Suzanne:

You wrote: “Clearly, I’m seeking #2 because I’m lacking #1”. In my post to you I suggested “(1) thrill and (2) love-bonding-trust”. So, are you saying that you are seeking love, bonding and trust with a man, and  that you are seeking these things because you are lacking thrill in your life???

“Something inside me would rather choose #3 (loneliness/ void) instead of #1 (love-bond)”-

– do you have experience in life with a “love-bond” relationship, be it with a parent or anyone? If so, what did or does that relationship look like, sound like, feel  like?

anita