Thank Anita.

I am trying to live in the moment but it so difficult for me to do right now. I only feel pain and I wish for it to stop. I had developed a daily routine with him that has gone on for 13 months.  What do I do with no routine in place. How do I make a new one when I feel this way. I can’t do anything but sit here in silence. Somehow the day is just done and I did nothing. It’s so hard to give up everything all at once. My love, my best friend, and the things that i did every day that brought me joy. There is nothing joyful right now.