You expressed lots of suffering in your thread. The title itself, “I can’t cry anymore” indicates your suffering. Let’s look at some of the suffering you shared about in your most recent post: “I feel trapped… I dislike being with myself.. I’m a loser… jealous and hurt.. inadequate.. I wish I was him, to have someone respect me and care about me.. I get this deep hurt inside.. like I am this worthless person.. I feel pain in my stomach, stress”-

– see, how can I possibly tell you that it is okay to suffer like this???

because suffering is inevitable, no matter what i do i always suffer, i dont think this is suffering though, i just think its the price of living, a price i have to pay for living, no other choice.

but it is not fine with you. You do care very much about what “females like”.

you are right, but its not me, just my feelings, i am not my feelings, my feelings do care how they see me, and sadly its not very good point of view to have, luckly i dont care much about feelings. what i wrote was all what i feel, which didnt come from me at all, just from my past experience\childhood.

“I feel trapped… I dislike being with myself.. I’m a loser… jealous and hurt.. inadequate.. I wish I was him, to have someone respect me and care about me.. I get this deep hurt inside.. like I am this worthless person.. I feel pain in my stomach, stress”

do you think this is someone who is ready for this world? i am at least good to myself in this side, im trying to make it easier for myself, and its out there where i get hurt, i can take boredom and loneliness, its things i know how to handle, its the world\people, that hurt me, and its not a pain that i like.

i should say that i just like talking to you, i might sound that im suffering alot, but im not really, i just like coming here and talking to you, i wish there was something else to talk about, but i dont have anything in mind, i told you about my teacher, how i would make excuses to talk to him, i just love kind people they make me feel warm and ok, i dont have to think much or do much just be myself, so easy and comforting