Hi anita,

Thanks for your reply. Yes you are absolutely right when you say that what I feel does not make me good or bad but what I do definitely does. Regarding your question on being interested in a relationship, this is something which I am unsure about.

Yes, I feel the peer pressure and in that I downloaded dating apps to find someone but then I think am I doing this to feel good that I lost a friend or doing it because I need it. Everyone needs a companion, a friend whom they can talk to, share memories with. But is this the right time for me to get into this or am I just doing this to feel good that I am not the only one left behind.

I understand that friendships do change and I am a person who has always feared change. I think about how stuff will change from next year to this year however as much as I would like everything to be the same it won’t be, because this is life. I think with time I may accept this but right now I feel sad, depressed.