Anita,

Yes, I did come from an abusive home. So, yes sometimes I feel like I deserve it. My father passed away when I was 2 years old. When he passed away my mother moved me back to Mexico with my grandparents and she moved back to Texas to work. It was hard for me when I needed her, but when she would come back all I have are bad memories. Moments where she would beat me to the point I would urinate myself. One of the most traumatic even was when she tried killing us both in her car. It hurts while I type this, but al I can remember was her saying how God had punished her by having me as a child and how much she regret having me. I have forgave my mother, but I can’t forget. That is something that still struggle with and i am seeking help for it.