Thank you again Anita.

I wanted to check in again and write, as I am currently experiencing some fear and anxiety.  Things will be great in my mind one minute, and then full blown anxiety/panic the next.

My boyfriend isn’t the greatest texter, which I totally internalize sometimes.  As I mentioned in my initial post, he isn’t really expressive verbally. I’m learning to just deal/accept that.  However, like I said, one day I will be totally cool with it, and kind of laugh it off, then something will set me off.

For example, I sent him a message almost three hours ago and he hasn’t replied.  He has been online on FB, but hasn’t replied to my message yet, and it is driving me crazy, and making me so angry.  I wish I wasn’t like this, and wish I didn’t get so mad.  I can feel it in the pit of my stomach, and it makes me want to lash out at him.

I think one of the big things that I really need to work on is my anger, and panic/anxiety.  I’m aware of it, but I wish it would go away.