Dear miyoid:

“This can also be about my apathy as well”- I am thinking about your apathy is that closing-in process when you were a child alone for too long, without interactions with others, particularly without loving interactions with others. For a child, love is like water is to a tree. If a tree doesn’t get enough water, it sheds its leaves, then maybe it sheds its branches until it remains its minimal trunk self. Similarly, a child without love for too long sheds her emotions, remaining her minimal apathetic self.

What do you think about my comparison, does it apply to you?

You wrote regarding your mother: “she .. still gets away from the problems.. she ignored them to the point where she cannot take it anymore and then broke it off. Maybe I’m like that”-

– I didn’t understand what you meant by “cannot take it anymore” and “broke it off”. Can you explain these to me?

One more thing, you wrote that your friend sent you a link to Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), suggesting that your boyfriend suffers from this disorder. Can you tell me about his most disturbing behaviors that fit the BPD diagnosis?

anita