Dear Anita,

I think you are right. I actually never thought about how my facial expressions and body language might be a big part of that. Rarely did I look boys in the eyes because I felt ashamed of how I looked, how much I weighed, how I mever wear makeup. I had such beautiful, perfect schoolmates around me that guys did not even pay attention to me and if at any occasion a guy showed interest in my schoolmates and very obviously pretended like I was not there I just assumed no guy will ever like me.
I do have self-esteem issues and I fat shame myself more than anyone else. And while I don’t look at guys with a do-not-come-near-me kinda look, I definitely might project energy that says I don’t feel worthy of love as a chubby girl.