Dear Tristan:

What you described very much reads like a disease of fear that is attached to thinking, aka OCD: “all of a sudden I’m like wait am I gay did I like this person”- all of a sudden, two thoughts occurred to you: am I gay? Did I like this person?

Instantaneously, you felt “really scared”- fear quickly attached itself to these two thoughts. Because of that fear, you “barely eat.. can’t concentrate on school”. As soon as you wake up, you “have those thoughts” plus the fear that is attached to them.

If fear did not attach itself to these two thoughts, then those two thoughts were free to become long gone, forgotten, like so many of your other thoughts.

“Can you guys please let me know if this is just anxiety or am I bi or what is this”- how many times did you post this question on HOCD/ public forum sites, what answers did you get, and how did you respond to the answers you received?

anita