Dear TeaK,

I think I do have become obsessed along the way, and all the contradictions contributed to the thread title. It’s true that I feel if there was someone else here, I wouldn’t be so “stuck”, but I still don’t want to go meet people especially just to get over the situation. Also, it’d be worse if there was someone else here, yet my mind continued to focus on him…

And you’re probably right about his ideas, just that we can never know 😉

Sometimes I think that I don’t really need to be in a committee relationship with him, like in the last contacts, I noticed that he’d respond in rather long hours (please note again that in the first year, he replied quickly and almost daily), which is opposite to what I often did, and that shows an imbalance of how I and he values the connection. Maybe I simply expect to be valued equally.

Now I seem to start to detach myself gradually by feeling even far less for him and not believing a reconciliation could happen and even work.

• This reply was modified 3 years, 9 months ago by Neverdyed.