Hi Anita, TeaK…

No, I hadn’t read TeaK’s post.  Just closed an AA meeting I host (Zoom), saw your reply (Anita) and then read her post.  What you say “feels” right, TeaK… and it explains why I can’t tell exactly what I’m crying for… it’s just an outpouring of old dammed-up feelings that I didn’t allow myself to feel.  It’s reassuring to learn that this is all a good thing, and that I’m headed in the right direction.  I bought John Bradshaw’s “Homecoming” this afternoon (Amazon… gotta love ’em in times like these.)  Very much looking forward to it.

And it doesn’t seem right, somehow, that someone as young as Ayla can emote so powerfully… she plays like someone who’s much older, banged around a bit by life.  I’ve been playing since I was 13 or 14, and I can’t do anything like that.  But I’m glad that *someone* can.

Again… thank you, both, for your patience and insight.  I truly treasure both.