Sammy, those words are very touching, i dream of that scenario, my previous relationship was a lot better in terms of being loved, unfortunately I younger and didn’t appreciate it then and eventually broke down and was too late, I still regret how I was to this day.

With the self esteem improvement I don’t even know where to begin, I’ve just been throwing myself into work, I know you can’t hunt love down, it comes unexpectedly and that’s the best thing about in a way. I’m just worried at being 35 I’m wasting precious time being alone, I have 2 younger siblings one with a child and one on the way, I’m terrified of getting older and it not happening for me, I just hope after sometime passes and I eventually heal I can be happy some day and feel equal love.