@Dannydan

Thanks for getting back.

I understand that the particularities of our situations are different. However, the basic narrative is the same: boy meets girl, boy hurts girl and pushes away, boy realises that he should go after the girl.

Well, maybe bar the third element 😊 in my case.

I am sorry if I led you into believing that I was incessantly thinking about B all this time. This is not the case. Furthermore, now that after our encounter it is clear that he is not into me in any degree (at least, now), I hardly give him a thought at all.

I guess I never go after the unattainable. I entertain hope, deep down, with or without being aware of it, if the situation is ambiguous. And then it depends on how ambiguous it is and for how long. This determines for how long and to what extent I am “on the hook.”

I did look up OCD several times in the past. Frankly, I don’t believe I am that extreme. But thank you anyway.

And thank you so much again and again for your male perspective! You’ve been like a mentor to me. Time to go back to reread those male psychology books, they are obviously on to something – your insights are the proof! Time for a refresher!

Wishing you and your ‘B’ all the happiness imaginable and especially not to forget what it is that made you go back to ‘B’ and the feelings that you are experiencing now!!!

@Jay2023

It is a bitter comfort for me as a female to see that men can have the same doubts and feelings – just like women.

@Dannydan’s and @Sammy1’s advice to you is also applicable to me, very much so.

We’ll get there! Keep up the good work!!!