dear Teak;

Does it mean you were criticized by your siblings and it is because of that, that you felt unwanted? Or your parents criticized you too?

actually yes they criticized me in fun way which hurted me ..unfortunately our elders  or us dont know a child want emotional,love or appreciation so they did it .my parents never criticized me ..my other siblings were actually jealous because my mom loves me alot..

I don’t quite understand how that looked like – you were sitting in her lap and used her hands to feed yourself? It’s something she made you do?

actually it was more like she used to feed me with her hands ,i dont remember exactly if i used to sit on her lap or beside her while eating food.specially if she cooked/fried fish..she was afraid if mistakely eat the bone of it..

Whose attention did you crave the most?

i wanted my siblings attention ,cousins or some guests..

out side of home i got scared very easily, dint have much confident , very quite , scared of being judge in school ..after 5th standard i started becoming better in studies ,gained some confidence but deep inside ,i was very scared …