I think I’ll wrap it up here. Not trying to be rude, but that’s completely off topic. I’ve had a breakthrough in the last week and I know where my path lies. It’s a shame that I am going through it all alone, but it is what it is. I accept life such as it is. I am here and I am now. My parents, my job, my bank account, all that doesn’t really matter. What matters is that I am learning to love myself, not in a vain selfish kind of a way, but in a way where I see that my mind, body, and my consciousness are starting to work together in unison. I am fine by myself. And that strength that I was look for in the beginning of the post, I have it now and that’s all I have to say. Thank you everyone.

c’est la vie