Dear lpkR09,

it’s good you’re seeing things clearly and that you want to focus on yourself and your own needs. Loving yourself and being dedicated to yourself is now your first priority. By all means talk to us whenever you feel weak and lonely and are tempted to get in touch with him again. You said he was your kryptonite, he was weakening you, because it was hard to be with someone whose love was so hard to get. It was frustrating and exhausting. And not only that, but the constant on and off, the hope and then the disappointment, is what made it even more exhausting. Remember that when you want to reach out to him, or when he perhaps gets in touch, trying something again…. Take good care of yourself, and keep in touch <3