I agree. I didn’t mean it like that. I didn’t mean the universe. I meant this reality. Not my reality, but the one that surrounds our current culture, world, situation. There are plenty positive and well intentioned homeless people who do not send out negative vibes into the universe and yet they are homeless and desperate. I just don’t want to end up there. I just meant that no matter what the world throws at me, I will not give up because I do in fact want to believe that there is some sort of balance to the universe. It can’t all be bad, it can’t all be just so random. I am die hard atheist, but that doesn’t I don’t accept the idea of things we do not understand. I simply refuse to see it as some playground for a higher being. When kids die around the world from hunger and whatever, those who are religious give excuses that God has a purpose for everyone and there is a reason for a young child’s suffering. I reject that world view and I reject a universe that punishes us for something or other. But I do not reject a cruel world that we live in because I am not blind and I refuse to wear rose colored glasses. I can’t change the world, but I can try to change myself and be good to others. That’s all I can do. That’s what I’ve done most of my life. Unfortunately, I did not work on myself or love myself. I will continue trying to be a light to others and help where I can, but I have to start with my self. And yes, that includes being positive in terms of the Universal playground that we are all on and the reality of the cold world that will stomp into nothingness if you let it. I don’t see any other path. I don’t have rich parents, I am not a hippy who can live in a bus. I want a safe life in terms of not stressing about every little thing that will require hard work and some basic luck. I can’t ask for anything else.