Thank you @Sammy for your kind words and encouragement.

I am really surprised you mentioned dating because it doesn’t seem like that to me.  I have not meet him, we are just chatting (messages only), no videos or calls, so I’m not sure if I would find him attractive in a romantic way if I met him, it there would be chemistry. Yes, I’ve seen pictures, but pictures and messages alone can be tricky. Also, I live in one town, and work in another, and he is even further, in totally different direction so I’m not sure if that would work really. I used to be ready to move because of love, but my boyfriends so far have not deserved that and I’m careful.

So I’m not sure if anything will come out of it, or I want that because of distance and I also told him that. I guess we’ll see.

I still have some bad days and some days these fears if you will ever have a husband or family do come back. Especially because of this weird times in pandemic, and the uncertainity of whether and when will it end. Sometimes I do get lonely, espcially when weekends come, and for example my friends are mostly coupled and they go on romantic trips or they plan summer vacations with their partners, and life gives so few chances to meet anyone these days.

But most of the time I do feel better. I hope I will feel even better in future and I try to be optimistic. I hope I will manage to post here more.

I wanted to ask you Sammy, how did you manage to overcame the fear of something new? I remember reading this topic, and how you wrote that you are afraid, and you would just want to wake up with married with someone, lying near you, and with kids. How did you overcome that? I’m afraid too, afraid I can’t make a wrong choice this time, because the time is passing…

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