You were hoping he has feelings for you, but doesn’t want to confess. I have to ask, just to make sure, did you confess it to him at that point? Does he know you have feelings for him?

yes I did exactly confess to him , so he does know about it you can be sure

-his answer to my confession , then, was , I never thought of us in this way, I am sorry its just been 5- 6months , I ll need atleast one year to even think about having another relationship .

(I feel , if I was really that close friend to him, then he would have let me know that’s how he feels about dating, but this had never come up from his side until then)

anyways

Ya I kind of couldnt believe it ,then, because I honestly , genuinely felt he had something, and I wouldnt just imagine that, I am not someone who does that, I think I would have backed off in the very beginning if he would have even slightly given me a hint.

but nonetheless , ya I dont know , what should I think now.,  this is kind of difficult to let go , of re-analyzing everything again and again.