I’ve actually just had a chat with my mum, haven’t really spoke about to her for a while sbout it because she was fed up with hearing about it when she said I was a fool for keep going back, I can tell how much it pains her to see me sad after all this time, so many people are rooting for me and care about me, I feel like i really need to step up and stop feeling sorry for myself at times because one person who didn’t value me is causing a ripple effect.

I don’t regret anything, I know I done more than enough but sometimes I do think well maybe I could of done this differently when really it’s all in my head and sometimes things just don’t work out. Seeing her has just fed the addiction I suppose, hopefully after the weekend I can get back to positive state of mind where I feel good about the changes I’ve been making and look to add a couple of more at some point.

Agree the weather’s not quite there yet but I’ve still caught some!