@Rhaenys sorry for being defensive. My brain is fried and I guess my feelings of protection for her kicked in.

@Sammy1 Before I start my reply. I just want to say thank you so much I know your weekend was busy and I hope your bf had a great birthday, to take time out for me – I’m beyond grateful. @Jay2023 doesn’t give himself credit. He has really been helpful to me more than he knows and I don’t know about him, but I felt we bonded.

That insight is incredible. I just panicked and saw it as a test (my own insecurities) but what you wrote is eye opening. I’m going to text her now. I’ve not contacted her all day but I trust your advice. And I do deserve answers but maybe I do need to be strong for her especially if her internal worries are making her behave so out of character. Thank you for stabilising me when I felt like I balloon that has had the air let out. I’ll let you know an update.