did she misuse your (and your sister’s) empathy, sort of sucked it out of you until all that remained in you was apathy?

i really can’t say, although i began to see empathy as something that people use to control you, i remember a couple of times i did somethings because of empathy, some stupid things, ever since i left religion, i saw a lot of my action was controlled by religion/feelings, she might added fuel to the fire, i seem to have little to say when it comes to my mother, i really don’t care about her

Feeling sadness is a calm feeling, preferable to the agitating/ unpleasantly-exciting feelings of fear and anger. Sadness is preferable to all the feelings, I think- the calmest, least disturbing. Do you agree?

yes, since i really feel something, i sometimes chase feelings, chills,