read like she was/ is hopeless, that she was not able or willing to imagine that you can help her, that your love for her can make her feel better (?)

I don’t think she want my love, she said that she only like me as a friend, there is a whole persona she don’t show me because she knows i don’t like it, for example her liking to philosophers, in our conversation before i was dumb enough to say i don’t like them, she told me that i make fun of her interest, its just make my heart fall apart, i want her to share her whole persona with me, but she already think i won’t like them, and she don’t like talking about something knowing the other person doesn’t like it, or not interested, she thinks i don’t care about anything (which is true) but for her i can care, i don’t know how can i explain this to her, maybe she don’t even want to, i should ask her actually, im thinking making another account, but i hate liying, maybe i could see her for herself, without filtering, she filtered herself and our conversation