Dear sossi;

I am sorry to read that your foot is numb and you are walking with a limp as a result of sciatica.

“you asked if I felt you judged m..  I think I felt you probably judged my mother and her lack of interest to support us, her daughters, by what I have said which of course in reality is one-sided. But it aligned with my opinions built up over the last 15 or so years”-

-But I trust the one-sided account that you told me about your mother to be true. I don’t need her account/ her side. I believe what you told me and therefore, I believe that she has been extremely self-centered throughout your childhood, and still is.

“I think that people reading this will consider me weak too and probably just a victim”- you really were a victim of your excessively selfish and self-centered mother. She weakened you. To no longer identify with being a victim and get stronger, you need, I believe, to open your eyes to you having really been a victim, and to see your account of victimhood in childhood, not as one side of two equally valid sides, but as the only one side that is valid in this context. If you don’t take your own side, you will keep on limping, figuratively .. and literally.

“I’ve tried to rely on my senses too much, but they are unreliable…reading tarot and star sign information online hoping that the information will point me in the right direction because trying hard hasn’t”- give yourself a break, stop trying so hard and take your own side, believe your own story, not a story told by the stars, but a story told by.. you.

anita