Hi Anita, I have been trying to keep myself calm and composed but it’s not exactly happening.

I feel so bad about my work currently that every Sunday night gives me anxiety thinking about the next day. I survived 6 months here but on Saturday evening after crying a lot, I made my mind to look for other jobs.

The company suffered losses during the lockdown and now they make the new employees work on weekends as well. We cover work of three or more job roles. And the remuneration is either not on time or paid less saying that we will pay the remaining amount next month and the cycle continues.

I first thought that maybe I am not working hard enough that is why they are not paying well… But despite working all the time… I get the same results.

Everything in my life was sour… My only hope currently was my job… It gave me a sense of appreciation for myself that i am adding value to a company… Now I feel depressed about Mondays because I am working on weekends as well so there is no personal life left. And every week, they keep increasing the work.

On the sidelines, my father sent me a picture of a guy. The guy and his family have also received my picture and are going through details about my qualifications and my family currently.

My father said once they like my profile then the talks will proceed. I am not too excited even now. But I am hopeful, my mom knows I haven’t moved on and she keeps listening to me regarding work issues and encourages me to be positive. I have been very irritable these days, if someone jokes about the same thing more than thrice, I shout at them to stop and leave me alone.

I don’t know if I am not competent enough to work or is my work situation actually bad…

Sorry for venting out. I spoke to my friends too but she just got her job so I didn’t want to scare her by telling about work in such negative light.

How are you doing??