Hello Richard,

Begin building your self esteem by listing all the good qualities you possess.  I’ve seen several of them in your posts.  Loving, supportive, caring, empathize, intelligent, loyal and so on.  Repeat them over and over to yourself until they are firmly fixed into your psyche.  It’s scary going out into the workplace after such a long break but you need to face that fear.  Otherwise, you may never make that leap into employment.  Logically, you know how capable you are so send love to that frightened little boy and assure him that everything will be fine now.  It’s awful being in limbo over what to do but any decision is better than no decision and if there is a job opportunity that you are excited about then let this be your guide.  What does it offer that others don’t.  Too often we want to make life rational with our thinking processes but our heart is our true brain.  Sometimes, putting our hands on our hearts when faced with a dilemma and asking ourselves how we ‘feel’ about each possible solution will guide us to our best option.

I will be away over the weekend.  Take care of yourself and that lovely girlfriend of yours.

Best Wishes

Peggy