Dear TeaK,

Thank you once again for ur reply.

She did say that she loves me and imagining us dating…(idk if she’s saying this with her adult mindset or she’s still immature).

Tbh the problem is not only about her aunt. Recently, she said to me she asks her mom… like for example “what if she’s in love with someone right now and that person loves her too”, her mom said that you are still too young to be in a relationship… and her mom advice her to be in a relationship when she’s graduated from uni later on as she’s more mature by then….

Actually her mom used to advice her with those words… and she always thought that she’ll only like someone after graduating uni… but she never expect that she’ll like me… that’s why she’s confused right now…. I also never thought that how i used to text her daily for the past few years would cause her to like me.

Although this time when she doesnt wanna let me go, when i heard she said that her mom said that she’s too young… i suddenly lost my mood and feel empty… like i think it’s pointless if i keep pushing for her… as she’s gonna live with her aunt later on and definitely her mum will end up finding out she’s dating with me….

Like i feel why do i need to get through this hardship only for a date…. Also later on i need to handle my insecurities…. Like i cant even handle my insecurities, and being with her i need to struggle with these hardships only to get a date. The only thing that still keeps pushing for her all this time because i often heard that one mustnt give up to get a relationship, especially if the feelings are mutual.

Tbh i’ll definitely get hurt when i leave her but thinking about all the struggles here is also painful…. Maybe it’s because the gap of our age is too far….Although i know she’s also trying to find a solution for us.
I never thought that it’s really this difficult to get a “date” with someone…. I noticed most of my friends had it easy to get a date.. as long as both parties agreed…

If only she’s not that pretty… i’m really sure i can move on easily.

I can feel that day by day i’m getting tired of her due to this complicated situation…. Although i can still sense my obsession of her.

I keep thinking that in this situation, she’s more advantageous than me… i’m correct right? Like i have to adapt with her “relationship issue” situation… whereas i never demand her anything regarding my situation.