Dear miyoid:

You are welcome. “Whenever I feel vulnerable..  that vulnerability or anxiety makes me want the connection one more time, without any further intention. No plans, no nothing. I just feel the need for that connection without any logic”-

You can’t get rid of your strong need for connection. But you can open your eyes,  see and choose a man who you can connect with and depend on him and on the connection. This most recent boyfriend is not a man you can depend on, and therefore, the connection with him broke again and again.

A child does not have the opportunity to choose her parents. But you have the opportunity to choose a boyfriend. When your eyes are closed, logic is not available for you, and “that vulnerability or anxiety” guides you. When your eyes are open, logic is available to guide you.

anita