Anita,

First I am trying (again) to act in a positive manner regarding my kids and putting them first and only talking about that with my ex.  I feel that I was already tested on Friday when I brought over their things.  My ex and Ella opened the door and we were talking about my dog b/c his head was hanging out of the window.  I had him because we were on our way to the dog park. While we were talking his girlfriend came up and in a loud voice was telling my daughter to come up stairs and get ready.  My daughter put her head down and walked away upstairs.  It was upsetting but I did not say anything.  I told myself to focus on when she is with me and showing both of them healthy love and affection.

The second thing I did was break it off with “S.”  Yesterday he told me that he was flying home this Thursday and driving back either Sunday or Monday.  He only spoke of his younger daughter and spending as much time as possible with her and that his Father’s birthday was Saturday and it was all a surprise because family did not know he was coming.  He just said to text him whenever Thursday and was vague about plans for the weekend.

While I believe that he should spend most of his time with his family (and I hope I’m not being selfish) I would think he would want to carve out a few hours to spend time with me-maybe coffee, lunch whatever.  I kept thinking about all of this last night. I kept waking up and finally sent a text to him saying I can no longer be in this relationship.  There is no room for me in it.  You will be gone until September. Your priority is for your oldest to get better and then to spend time with your youngest as much as possible.

I feel some anxiety but when I think about it this was the right decision for me.  I did not include anything negative and I have a good bit of it.  I know text is non personable but I was worried if I called I would back out. I also blocked the number because again I might back out of it if he texted.  I’m just frustrated that I let it get to this point.  I’m also frustrated with his lack of trying and how I was treated and that I was taken advantage of.  However I need to focus on the future.

Lindsey