Hello, after a long time
I wanted to say that I broke up with him. Im so sad. However, I feel that this was a painful must, and you gave me the courage to make a serious decision and look at things more clearly. Thank you both @anita and @TeaK
It was as you said he knew that was coming. We had a friendly, calm and undresyanding ending that was very painful.
We both cried. I feel very distressed and confused.
I did not think it would be so hard and painful like this. This is the first time I feel this way.
I feel that all the problems have flowed to me from everywhere and I do not feel safe anymore.. It’s like I was givin a yarn full of knots to open and I don’t know where to start If you know what I mean.
I feel he was the only safe ground I had.
There are many things that are happening right now. I could not even talk to anyone about my break up because everyone is very involved in their problems and things that are going on.

But it is very strange how we humans can live in spite of all this suffering. I feel like a glass full of cracks. I was cracked by a lot of bullets, but I will not break. it’s painful. I just remembered the bulletproof glassand how it breaks lol
I ask myself why I have to add a new kind of pain to my pains. So far, I have endured a lot and gone through many problems. It amazes me how I managed to do this.