Hi Teak, thanks for reading such huge paragraphs and replying 😊  that topic is extremely difficult  and I did share it with only one friend in my life . My friend suggested I live separately from them, which I am doing.  I never spoke directly with mom regarding this, but she knows I hate him. They have helped me a lot after my tragedy,  provided support in bringing up the kid. So I did bear it struggling inside myself, wearing hopelessly loose clothes . Now he changed, no old behavior as of now. May be because  of age.                                                                        Regarding that guy, his dialogue is same. He will meet me whenever he visits home city until either of us die. I can date other ppl and can walk away from him if I find myself a good relationship. He will always be there in case I wish to go back to him.                                                                            Planning  to talk to a therapist in the following  week and work on my issues. Hopefully I ll write a new post some time later with a fresh perspective and happy mind.