Dear Anita,

Sorry about my very late response. My mom told me when I was a kid I was tested for other things, but not adhd. I really need someone to talk to. I got a therapist, but I don’t know how to explain exactly what I’m feeling. She thought my dream could be related to the fact I was an atheist, but that is a complicated story. I’m having such a hard time right now inside my mind. I can’t figure out what my sexuality is.My mind keeps pondering over what my thoughts mean and I’m so confused. These feelings don’t make me happy or excited, but they make me so stressed. And honestly so sad. Every time I’m with someone I love and care about my mind says your gay and you should tell them. When I don’t, I feel hot and guilty, but I don’t want to say anything when I don’t know what sexuality I am. People say listen to your heart, but I’m so stressed I can’t ever tell what it is saying anymore. Like I said, I’m so sad and disappointed at the idea of losing the possibility of a boyfriend or husband, but these thoughts won’t go away and I can’t tell if they’re true or not. The idea of a future with a girl make me sad, frustrated, and disappointed, but I can’t tell if I’m gay or not. I keep thinking about any time I might have seemed gay, and every time I find something it does not feel right. I liked having crushes on guys and dreaming about my future with them. Now this confusion makes me think I’ll be alone forever.