Dear TeaK,

Thank you once again for ur reply.

“Well next time, if you don’t want such photos to become public, don’t allow to have your photo taken while you’re making silly faces…. but in the meanwhile, relax, no one will judge you for it.“

= So i wont be judged as a person who has a “weird” personality right, only because of that pic?

I also wanna update about my life:

-I’ve been continuing to do my physical exercise every evening, although sometimes i feel lazy to do it, but i still force myself to do it…. I only feel motivated on the first few days and the rest are me forcing my laziness to do workout 🙂, but i never missed a single day since i start doing exercise.

– Every morning i still feel anxiety every time i woke up, the anxiety is unbearable as usual… although after 30 minutes-1 hour i’ll feel a bit calmer… it’s always this way every morning… I’ve been able to adapt with it, but i still prefer if i can let go of that morning anxiety completely.

– As for the “taking masters issue”, luckily i’m able to calm my mind after overthinking on how much i messed up, i hope i wont get triggered again until the situation on my city is better.

– Regarding my relationship life, as sometimes i feel anxious, it reminded me of that “girl” again… although i feel different towards her this time, i don’t hope for her anymore… but the hatred and jealousy towards her is still there.

I’m thinking of trying to get close to a girl whom i get to know through social media few months ago (as i bought something from her online sales on instagram), but the thing is…. she’s taking uni in our country’s capital city… I’m pretty sure she’s gonna apply for jobs in the capital when she graduates later on….

She’s 3 years younger than me.

She’s still in our hometown right now, as her class are still online (due to covid situation)

Even though she has been in uni for a year, she haven’t experienced living in the capital yet… She has been studying at home since she started her uni. She’ll graduate on 2024.

I feel a bit of attraction towards her because she’s pretty (not that pretty but her appearance is my type), and i remember she said to me that she’s an introvert and rarely goes out… if she hangs out it’ll only be with her small group of friends… and i like conservative girls.

Should i try getting close to her? I’ll try to initiate a conversation by buying stuffs with her again so it won’t be awkward…

But she tends to give me late replies when i text her few months ago, she said that she’s quite busy with her uni and her business. 😂

I also have a feeling that she has no experience in dating, just like me… so i cant really know if she’s interested in dating or not.

I still can’t predict when she’ll go to the capital.

Tbh it’s actually better for me to chase girls who took uni in our hometown, because most girls who took uni here will most likely work here too…but i tried searching through social media, there isnt anyone that i’m attracted to (at least by looking at their profiles and posts 🙂). The one i’m most attracted to is that girl i mentioned above.

Although you’ve said to me before regarding the “shortage of girls in my hometown” issue is just me overthinking things… but yeah… this is what i’m feeling right now….

I’m being cautious right now because i don’t wanna experience another heartbreak… as it’ll only exhausts my mind…